In 1991, just before I headed off to College, the Lord gave me an open vision. As I was driving my car, suddenly in my mind’s eye, I saw a huge movie screen open before my eyes and there it was. The events of my past! My heart was filled with remorse, as I uttered, “oops, sorry Father.” It was clear that I had been steering my life in the wrong direction. In the most gentle and gracious way, He said, “This is what you have done, I want you to see what I can do.” His timing was perfect because I was ready for a change of lifestyle. At that time, I was working the evening shift at the most popular bar in my hometown. I was living my life selfishly and doing as I pleased without regard for anyone else. Instantly, I knew that the way I had been living was unacceptable to my loving Saviour. The one who had been with me the whole time. The one who died so that I could live. Watching and allowing my very poor choices, Jesus loved me too much not to intervene. He knew that the path I was on would lead to death. He came so that I could have an abundant life of peace and joy. So, He used the consequences of my bad behaviour to draw me to Himself.
Even though, I accepted Christ into my heart when I was 8 years old, my Holy Spirit education began when I was 21. Looking back, I should have gone to Bible College instead of taking two years to become a travel consultant. I’ve been toying with the idea of going to Bible College now, just to satisfy man, not that I think it wouldn’t be great fun. I do!! But the Lord reminds me that He has prepared me exactly the way I am for His purpose and He doesn’t want me to be concerned about a title or a position. The door He opens no man can shut. 1 John 2:27 says, “You have received the Holy Spirit, and He lives within you, so you don’t need anyone to teach you what is true. For the Spirit teaches you everything you need to know, and what He teaches is true – it is not a lie. (The Message Bible version adds, “uncontaminated by a single lie”) The Holy Spirit’s teachings are uncontaminated by man’s imposed ideas. As well, Jesus said, “As it is written in the scriptures, ‘They will all be taught by God.’ Everyone who listens to the Father and learns from Him comes to me.” Is it possible to be prepared by God to do His work without Bible College? HE seems to think so!
While in college, I worked my way through a twelve step program. The program encouraged us to, “take what we like and leave the rest.” We choose what makes sense to us and mold our belief system around our own thoughts and feelings. However, God wants us to build our belief system on His Word. I’ve decided to soar like an Eagle in this life by basking in the amazing events, that Ephesians 2:10 tells us, He has planned for us to do. Experiences that He promises are beyond my best imaginings. He will satisfy my soul and the desires of my heart.
While homeschooling my son, pre-planning the lessons was important but I learned to be flexible because Holy Spirit reserved the right to change my plans at any given moment. His memorable lessons always last a lifetime. I want the only Father that I’ve ever had, to be proud of me and I know He is. The one thing in this life I am secure in, is “His Love for Me.” Sometimes, I worry that I’m too much like Moses and instead of speaking to the rock, I will become angry and have to face the consequences. What I mean is, that my hasty behavior will set me off the best destiny path the Lord has for me. Regardless, I know that nothing can make My Father love me any less. However, I prefer the speed of the Holy Highway rather than the bumpy wayward ditch.
Since the experience of my open vision, I’ve pursued intimacy with God passionately so that my life can be a living testament to Him. In the same way that Jesus did many other things while he was here. If those events were all written down, the whole world could not contain the books that would be written. Our lives would produce many books as well. No one knows what you are capable of. Only He knows. My Holy Spirit education will never be complete and I CAN do all things with Christ, who strengthens me. I wouldn’t want to do it any other way!